Fisher Majors (![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} hearitbleed) wrote,@ 2009-09-19 21:26:00 |
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Saturday Afternoon 1/20/08 Aim: Fisher/Will
hearitbleed: Well how about that. The man lives
rockmyfkngworld: There are many definitions of living
hearitbleed: Where've you been?
rockmyfkngworld: Out.
hearitbleed: Fine. I didn't really want to know anyway.
rockmyfkngworld: Makes sense. You don't wanna know so you ask me.
rockmyfkngworld: Miss me?
hearitbleed: Please. I missed you like I miss sleeping on busses
rockmyfkngworld: Those buses are addicting...
hearitbleed: I didn't miss you. I just noticed you were gone
rockmyfkngworld: Fine, live your little lie.
hearitbleed: So where did you go?
rockmyfkngworld: To Narnia
hearitbleed: Get back in your closet, did you?
rockmyfkngworld: Well actually I thought it was yours, turned out to be your boyfriend's
hearitbleed: You can't fit in his closet, it's full of clothing he barely wears
rockmyfkngworld: And obviously bought under the influence.
hearitbleed: Hey! He's got style
rockmyfkngworld: From the early 1900s
hearitbleed: Not everyone needs to dress like a drag queen, Will
rockmyfkngworld: And yet you insist
hearitbleed: I don't dress like a drag queen!
rockmyfkngworld: no you dress like a drag duchess
hearitbleed: Bite my glorious gothic ass
rockmyfkngworld: I don't know where it's been. Plus you'd like it too much and orgasm from my breath before I even managed.
hearitbleed: You think really highly of yourself, don't you?
rockmyfkngworld: If I don't no-one else will
hearitbleed: Guess we'll never know, will we?
rockmyfkngworld: Probably not.
rockmyfkngworld: How'd your 2nd audition go
hearitbleed: Same as the first, I imagine
rockmyfkngworld: Aced it then
hearitbleed: Maybe
rockmyfkngworld: What the fuck are you on about "maybe"
hearitbleed: Fine, I was phenomenal. Ok?
rockmyfkngworld: That's the little goth boy"
hearitbleed: Shut it
rockmyfkngworld: What? I'm proud.
rockmyfkngworld: I wanted to watch you but I already had mine
hearitbleed: You kicked ass I'm sure
rockmyfkngworld: "When you're good to mama" always kicks ass
hearitbleed: You are SUCH a drag queen
rockmyfkngworld: Hey he wanted a big fucking show tune
hearitbleed: I'm just saying, in case it was a mystery to you
rockmyfkngworld: You are so acidic to me. It hurts
hearitbleed: Cry little emo man, cry
rockmyfkngworld: Nice mirror you got there
rockmyfkngworld: Talk to yourself often?
hearitbleed: I'm flipping off the screen in 3...2...1
hearitbleed: There
rockmyfkngworld: I bet if I told you I was naked and popping around your boyfriend's pad next door the screen would magicaly turn itself back on
hearitbleed: Fuck you
rockmyfkngworld: I wouldn't do anything with him.
hearitbleed: James would never go for you anyway
rockmyfkngworld: Yeah his taste isn't very high.
hearitbleed: Thanks
rockmyfkngworld: You know I'm shitting you.
hearitbleed: Sometimes I'm not so sure
rockmyfkngworld: In a dangerous move which might border on seemingly sentimental - you're the only friend I have here. And I don't wanna fuck you off so much you don't wanna speak to me again.
hearitbleed: It's hard to get rid of me, it seems. So don't worry about it. You could slap me around I'd still come back
rockmyfkngworld: Why?
hearitbleed: I'm self destructive
rockmyfkngworld: That's a bad thing to be
hearitbleed: So I've been told
rockmyfkngworld: You're dangerous to me
hearitbleed: Me? Dangerous to you??
rockmyfkngworld: Yes
hearitbleed: How is that possible?
rockmyfkngworld: You make me feel things. I'm not myself around you.
hearitbleed: Feelings are apparently a good thing
rockmyfkngworld: No they're not
hearitbleed: I'm torn
rockmyfkngworld: What
hearitbleed: On feelings. I have them, I use them, they get me in trouble.
rockmyfkngworld: But you like trouble.
hearitbleed: Precisely. But if I didn't feel anything I wouldn't have to worry about anything. Heroin was great for that. I just didn't give a shit.
rockmyfkngworld: Hmm
rockmyfkngworld: You know how I feel.
hearitbleed: I know.
hearitbleed: But I still don't see how I'm dangerous to you
rockmyfkngworld: I'm weaker when I'm with you.
hearitbleed: I don't think you're weak at all.
rockmyfkngworld: I am. You just don't know me when I'm not.
hearitbleed: That's a terrifying prospect, since you're one of the strongest and most confident men I know
rockmyfkngworld: You don't get it
hearitbleed: I get a lot more than I let on
rockmyfkngworld is available (9:12:47 PM)
in the midnight hour
hearitbleed:
hearitbleed: I don't think you're weak at all.
rockmyfkngworld: I am. You just don't know me when I'm not.
hearitbleed: That's a terrifying prospect, since you're one of the strongest and most confident men I know
rockmyfkngworld: You don't get it
hearitbleed: I get a lot more than I let on
rockmyfkngworld: Do tell
hearitbleed: Nope. I'm the master of secrets
rockmyfkngworld: Then you don't get anything
hearitbleed: I get that I scare you.
rockmyfkngworld: That's fucking obvious cause I told you
hearitbleed: And I get that you think of yourself as a big damn hypocrite, which you won't admit. And that you actually like having feelings, but it freaks you out because it puts you on level with the rest of us
rockmyfkngworld: I have to be the other person
rockmyfkngworld: The one I am with you leads to pain
hearitbleed: Why do you "have to" be that guy?
rockmyfkngworld: I don't want pain
hearitbleed: You know why you have pain? Because you avoided any emotion for so long.
rockmyfkngworld: No, the reason I have pain is because I allowed myself to get close to a man who is now dead without any closure on my part, and because I've allowed myself to get close to you, another person I can't have because you're with dickhea.d
rockmyfkngworld: Fuck it. Enjoy your evening.
rockmyfkngworld: Forget this conversation.
hearitbleed: He's not a dickhead.
rockmyfkngworld: I said forget it.
hearitbleed: If you really want me to, I will. I'll never mention it again.
rockmyfkngworld: I say all that and you focus on the fucker anyway
hearitbleed: What the hell do you want me to say? No, you can't have me. James can't even have me. That isn't my fault. I like you, Will, but you're fucking damaged and you make me feel like I'm the only person who can save you and I can't. I can't do it. So what can I say to you, knowing I'm going to let you down?
rockmyfkngworld: Fuck you. Twice.
rockmyfkngworld: [away]
hearitbleed: Fine. Fuck me.
hearitbleed: I'm sorry.
rockmyfkngworld: Go away
hearitbleed: Okay
hearitbleed: [away status: Fuck Me.]
rockmyfkngworld: That your version of a red light in the shop window?
hearitbleed: [away status: Drop Dead]
rockmyfkngworld: [away status: Don't give a shit about you.]
hearitbleed: Before you said you did. And now you don't. So which is it? Do I matter or not?
rockmyfkngworld: What do you care?
hearitbleed: I care because I fucking care. Because I thought you were my friend. Because I thought that maybe there was one person that needed my help that I could maybe help and not just let down like I do with everyone else.
hearitbleed: And I want to know if I'm wrong.
rockmyfkngworld: Wrong about what
hearitbleed: Do I matter?
rockmyfkngworld: YEs
hearitbleed: Then stop being a dick to me
rockmyfkngworld: You screwed up royally Fisher now fuck off
hearitbleed: I screwed up? How?
rockmyfkngworld: You did let me down.
rockmyfkngworld: Said it yourself. You know you're going to and you don't feel like you can help me
rockmyfkngworld: So save me the embarassment of actually going down this road and leave me the hell alone cause once I go down that road I won't come back
rockmyfkngworld: Goodnight, Fisher. Go fuck Mr Perfect.
hearitbleed: I've had enough of that.
rockmyfkngworld: what
hearitbleed: Of you badmouthing James. Look, just because I don't want to fuck you, because I love someone that isn't you, because I'm not falling all over myself over you, that makes me an asshole??
rockmyfkngworld: [away status: not here.]
hearitbleed: You don't deserve me. I have never said that to and meant it negatively, but I'm saying it now. You're selfish and you're mean and you don't give a shit about anyone and you're not the only person who's getting hurt.
rockmyfkngworld: YES I FUCKING AM.
rockmyfkngworld: piss off before i go apeshit on your boyfriend's ass
rockmyfkngworld: [offline]
hearitbleed: Well how about that. The man lives
rockmyfkngworld: There are many definitions of living
hearitbleed: Where've you been?
rockmyfkngworld: Out.
hearitbleed: Fine. I didn't really want to know anyway.
rockmyfkngworld: Makes sense. You don't wanna know so you ask me.
rockmyfkngworld: Miss me?
hearitbleed: Please. I missed you like I miss sleeping on busses
rockmyfkngworld: Those buses are addicting...
hearitbleed: I didn't miss you. I just noticed you were gone
rockmyfkngworld: Fine, live your little lie.
hearitbleed: So where did you go?
rockmyfkngworld: To Narnia
hearitbleed: Get back in your closet, did you?
rockmyfkngworld: Well actually I thought it was yours, turned out to be your boyfriend's
hearitbleed: You can't fit in his closet, it's full of clothing he barely wears
rockmyfkngworld: And obviously bought under the influence.
hearitbleed: Hey! He's got style
rockmyfkngworld: From the early 1900s
hearitbleed: Not everyone needs to dress like a drag queen, Will
rockmyfkngworld: And yet you insist
hearitbleed: I don't dress like a drag queen!
rockmyfkngworld: no you dress like a drag duchess
hearitbleed: Bite my glorious gothic ass
rockmyfkngworld: I don't know where it's been. Plus you'd like it too much and orgasm from my breath before I even managed.
hearitbleed: You think really highly of yourself, don't you?
rockmyfkngworld: If I don't no-one else will
hearitbleed: Guess we'll never know, will we?
rockmyfkngworld: Probably not.
rockmyfkngworld: How'd your 2nd audition go
hearitbleed: Same as the first, I imagine
rockmyfkngworld: Aced it then
hearitbleed: Maybe
rockmyfkngworld: What the fuck are you on about "maybe"
hearitbleed: Fine, I was phenomenal. Ok?
rockmyfkngworld: That's the little goth boy"
hearitbleed: Shut it
rockmyfkngworld: What? I'm proud.
rockmyfkngworld: I wanted to watch you but I already had mine
hearitbleed: You kicked ass I'm sure
rockmyfkngworld: "When you're good to mama" always kicks ass
hearitbleed: You are SUCH a drag queen
rockmyfkngworld: Hey he wanted a big fucking show tune
hearitbleed: I'm just saying, in case it was a mystery to you
rockmyfkngworld: You are so acidic to me. It hurts
hearitbleed: Cry little emo man, cry
rockmyfkngworld: Nice mirror you got there
rockmyfkngworld: Talk to yourself often?
hearitbleed: I'm flipping off the screen in 3...2...1
hearitbleed: There
rockmyfkngworld: I bet if I told you I was naked and popping around your boyfriend's pad next door the screen would magicaly turn itself back on
hearitbleed: Fuck you
rockmyfkngworld: I wouldn't do anything with him.
hearitbleed: James would never go for you anyway
rockmyfkngworld: Yeah his taste isn't very high.
hearitbleed: Thanks
rockmyfkngworld: You know I'm shitting you.
hearitbleed: Sometimes I'm not so sure
rockmyfkngworld: In a dangerous move which might border on seemingly sentimental - you're the only friend I have here. And I don't wanna fuck you off so much you don't wanna speak to me again.
hearitbleed: It's hard to get rid of me, it seems. So don't worry about it. You could slap me around I'd still come back
rockmyfkngworld: Why?
hearitbleed: I'm self destructive
rockmyfkngworld: That's a bad thing to be
hearitbleed: So I've been told
rockmyfkngworld: You're dangerous to me
hearitbleed: Me? Dangerous to you??
rockmyfkngworld: Yes
hearitbleed: How is that possible?
rockmyfkngworld: You make me feel things. I'm not myself around you.
hearitbleed: Feelings are apparently a good thing
rockmyfkngworld: No they're not
hearitbleed: I'm torn
rockmyfkngworld: What
hearitbleed: On feelings. I have them, I use them, they get me in trouble.
rockmyfkngworld: But you like trouble.
hearitbleed: Precisely. But if I didn't feel anything I wouldn't have to worry about anything. Heroin was great for that. I just didn't give a shit.
rockmyfkngworld: Hmm
rockmyfkngworld: You know how I feel.
hearitbleed: I know.
hearitbleed: But I still don't see how I'm dangerous to you
rockmyfkngworld: I'm weaker when I'm with you.
hearitbleed: I don't think you're weak at all.
rockmyfkngworld: I am. You just don't know me when I'm not.
hearitbleed: That's a terrifying prospect, since you're one of the strongest and most confident men I know
rockmyfkngworld: You don't get it
hearitbleed: I get a lot more than I let on
rockmyfkngworld is available (9:12:47 PM)
in the midnight hour
hearitbleed:
hearitbleed: I don't think you're weak at all.
rockmyfkngworld: I am. You just don't know me when I'm not.
hearitbleed: That's a terrifying prospect, since you're one of the strongest and most confident men I know
rockmyfkngworld: You don't get it
hearitbleed: I get a lot more than I let on
rockmyfkngworld: Do tell
hearitbleed: Nope. I'm the master of secrets
rockmyfkngworld: Then you don't get anything
hearitbleed: I get that I scare you.
rockmyfkngworld: That's fucking obvious cause I told you
hearitbleed: And I get that you think of yourself as a big damn hypocrite, which you won't admit. And that you actually like having feelings, but it freaks you out because it puts you on level with the rest of us
rockmyfkngworld: I have to be the other person
rockmyfkngworld: The one I am with you leads to pain
hearitbleed: Why do you "have to" be that guy?
rockmyfkngworld: I don't want pain
hearitbleed: You know why you have pain? Because you avoided any emotion for so long.
rockmyfkngworld: No, the reason I have pain is because I allowed myself to get close to a man who is now dead without any closure on my part, and because I've allowed myself to get close to you, another person I can't have because you're with dickhea.d
rockmyfkngworld: Fuck it. Enjoy your evening.
rockmyfkngworld: Forget this conversation.
hearitbleed: He's not a dickhead.
rockmyfkngworld: I said forget it.
hearitbleed: If you really want me to, I will. I'll never mention it again.
rockmyfkngworld: I say all that and you focus on the fucker anyway
hearitbleed: What the hell do you want me to say? No, you can't have me. James can't even have me. That isn't my fault. I like you, Will, but you're fucking damaged and you make me feel like I'm the only person who can save you and I can't. I can't do it. So what can I say to you, knowing I'm going to let you down?
rockmyfkngworld: Fuck you. Twice.
rockmyfkngworld: [away]
hearitbleed: Fine. Fuck me.
hearitbleed: I'm sorry.
rockmyfkngworld: Go away
hearitbleed: Okay
hearitbleed: [away status: Fuck Me.]
rockmyfkngworld: That your version of a red light in the shop window?
hearitbleed: [away status: Drop Dead]
rockmyfkngworld: [away status: Don't give a shit about you.]
hearitbleed: Before you said you did. And now you don't. So which is it? Do I matter or not?
rockmyfkngworld: What do you care?
hearitbleed: I care because I fucking care. Because I thought you were my friend. Because I thought that maybe there was one person that needed my help that I could maybe help and not just let down like I do with everyone else.
hearitbleed: And I want to know if I'm wrong.
rockmyfkngworld: Wrong about what
hearitbleed: Do I matter?
rockmyfkngworld: YEs
hearitbleed: Then stop being a dick to me
rockmyfkngworld: You screwed up royally Fisher now fuck off
hearitbleed: I screwed up? How?
rockmyfkngworld: You did let me down.
rockmyfkngworld: Said it yourself. You know you're going to and you don't feel like you can help me
rockmyfkngworld: So save me the embarassment of actually going down this road and leave me the hell alone cause once I go down that road I won't come back
rockmyfkngworld: Goodnight, Fisher. Go fuck Mr Perfect.
hearitbleed: I've had enough of that.
rockmyfkngworld: what
hearitbleed: Of you badmouthing James. Look, just because I don't want to fuck you, because I love someone that isn't you, because I'm not falling all over myself over you, that makes me an asshole??
rockmyfkngworld: [away status: not here.]
hearitbleed: You don't deserve me. I have never said that to and meant it negatively, but I'm saying it now. You're selfish and you're mean and you don't give a shit about anyone and you're not the only person who's getting hurt.
rockmyfkngworld: YES I FUCKING AM.
rockmyfkngworld: piss off before i go apeshit on your boyfriend's ass
rockmyfkngworld: [offline]